Owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!

My head hurts and I feel like shit. And Spence is laying next to me playing w/ some kind of activity mat and kicking my. I'm about to throw the mat out the damn window. It plays the most annoying music...EVER.

Kinda Hot...Well Sorta......

David Blaine..he's kinda hot until I think about how incredibly stupid he is w/ all his stunts!!! Then he pulls the stunt off and he's kinda hot again. That's all.

I Spent a TON of Moolah today!!!

Money is like a double edged sword to me. I do love it but man I hate it too. Well no I take that back, I don't hate IT I just hate the stress that goes w/ spending it or not spending it. I ordered our new computer and MY NEW CAMERA and spent a couple thousand dollars today...it was excruiating and exhillarating all at the same time. (Whew talk about a panic attack!) But all the stress aside incase you missed it up there I GOT MY CAMERA TODAY!!!!!!!!! Okay, well I ordered it and I will be holding my breath til it gets here! I don't give a crap about the computer I just WANT MY CAMERA!

What kind of camera you ask???? A new Canon XSI 12.2 mp REBEL!!!! I have wanted a rebel for more than a year! I am so freaking excited in case you didn't figure that out already!!!!! Get ready to be inundated w/ TONS of AMAZING pictures. Despite my mother being an extrodinary professional photograper I know JACK SHIT about photography. Sure I can take a picture w/ a point and shoot but manual settings..yeah whatever! So I'm trying to learn. Anyone have any good tips????

In other news I went to the store today and bought whatever the hell I wanted for the first time in a long time! The big kids each got a new toy. Madaliscious got a new trunk full of dress up clothes and the Bubs got a new transformer. I got a hanging rod to hang my clothes up in the laundry room, cat food, a cat food feeder (which was NOT a feeder but a water-er so that goes back) and soda. Oh and of couse beer, I need it after this week people!

Kids had pictures tonight for soccer. Fun! No not really. Since mom is a photograper I obsess about other people taking my kids pictures. They never take any that compare to hers BUT I think these will turn out pretty good if not great. I can't wait to get them.

The game. Oh dear. The bubs has it right, he takes the ball away from the other team AND his teamates. To be fair so does everyone but I'm trying to make him understand. Madaliscious on the other hand won't even play. She just stands there and looks cute. On. The. Sidelines. It's infuriating. I guess I'm going to have to have another girl to follow in my softball footsteps cause I just don't see this girl getting into it and I want to watch my daughter play softball. Yes, as a matter of fact it IS all about me.

Soccer games exhaust me. The only thing that keeps me going until after the kids are in bed is knowing I have Bud Light in the fridge. And on that note peeps, I'm outta here. Bud's callin my name.

Last One Tongiht I Promise

To My Hubby,

I LOVE YOU! I LOVE what you are doing for our family. I am so damn proud of you. I know you are working your butt off and must be exhausted but you're doing so well. Yay for you for having all A's and totally kicking ass in school. Little 18 year olds ain't got nothing on you baby! Yep, you are going to go far in life and I am so damn proud and lucky to be going on that journey with you.

Love,
Otis

Oh Henry!

You suck! Just thought you should know that. For over two years now you've been a part of my mom's life which means you've been a part of MY childrens lives. My kids ADORE you and everytime they see my mom or know shes coming they ask about Henry. Especially Madison..I think my little girl has a little girl crush on you (although what she sees I just don't know!). But ENOUGH already. I hope you are once and for all gone from my mom's life...this constant back and forth for the past year is stupid...honestly its juvenille. Grow up. You're like 50..not in high school and more than capable of "knowing" what you want in life. Mid life or not dude get over yourself. Get in your little "I'm having a midlife crisis corvette" and ride off into the sunset. Let my mom move on and get w/ a guy who deserves her, will worship her and will love her family like his own. Ughhhh.

Two 4 Year Olds!

Saturday was Maddies birthday and I now have 2 four year olds! Lord help me now lol. Her birthday was pretty great! We started it off w/ a soccer game and then went out to eat for breakfast. Did some shopping for computers and my new camera (its going to kick ass!!!!) and then went and got her a cake. We came home and had dinner and cake and opened one present. She was ecstatic, she got a bunch of lipglosses! Her actual party is this Sunday and she is soooo excited about it. She keeps telling everyone that she's having two parties "a big one and a wittle one". She's so cute! I just adore my 4 year going on 15 year old princess!

School Daze

Listen here fuckers...if you have a child PUT THEM IN A FREAKING CAR SEAT. There is ZERO excuse not to have them one. They aren't that expensive. If you want I'll go buy you one..hell I think the fire department GIVES them away. If you have a baby/child and you don't have them in a carseat then you don't deserve to be a parent. No ifs ands or buts. So lady at school today that put two precious little girls in the back of a ford explorer w/ no carseats...I WILL say something next time and I WILL write down your license plate and I WILL give it to the cop that is at the school EVERY day and you WILL get in trouble....worthless bitch.

To the other stupid parent at the school that wouldn't get the hell out of the way and had traffic backed up to the road......PARK YOUR DAMN CAR, GET OUT, AND GO IN AND GET YOUR CHILD. I know, what a novel idea huh? I do it EVERY day but unlike you I also have to get a stroller and a carseat (see what a good mommy I am???) and go in. You are not special..park your piece of shit car get your white trash self out and go get your damn kid. Like the other dumbass next time (and lord help me if there is a next time) I will get out of my car tell you to move your piece and write your license plate down and tell mr. cop when I see him.

And this people is why I go get my kids early every day so I don't get arrested for kicking some dumb ass moms ass in the parking lot. I'm not a mean person, I swear I'm not, I just have no patience for stupid people!

Update...finally!!!

Whew.....I've been sooooo busy! My "babies" started preschool! I'm not going to pretend to be sad because I'm not. They needed it and so did I. They are having so much fun and learning so much. Both their teachers comment about how good they are every day. Hearing them talk about school and their friends and hearing the songs they learned seriously melts my heart. This is just so good for them/us! With DJ I never got to enjoy his baby stages because I was pregnant w/ Maddie 2 1/2 weeks after I had him and was miserable. With Maddie I was too busy taking care of 2 babies and suffering from PPD to enjoy her. Now w/ them in school I get some one on one time w/ Spence and I am enjoying the hell of of it. He is amazing. They all are. And even though sometimes I think they are going to drive me freaking crazy they always make me smile (even if its just on the inside lol)!

We've been running around like crazy people all week trying to get Jer enrolled in school. We were late for enrollement because Jer had to retake his GED test because we couldn't find his transcripts. Its funny because he basically has to have an associates degree to do the job he does but he still had to take the test. But we got him enrolled and he started classes today. Yay! It was hilarious when we were trying to pick out classes for him (VERY limited because of the late enrollment)...he tried to take anatomy/physiology and couldn't until he enrolled in a math class ( there were none open this semester) so he couldn't take it..I was crackin up because he CUTS PEOPLE OPEN EVERY DAY...lol, he damn well better know his anatomy LMAO! Another funny part is for one of his classes he's taking Sports Officiating..it was the only class open...but REALLY??? I can't believe that's a college course!

In other news, I am a soccer coach. Yep that's right. I don't know Jack Shit about soccer but I am a coach. Should be a fun season. Our first practice is tomorrow. Wish me luck.

I'm putting off real estate school...too much going on. The kids in school, Jer in school, Jer working so much, soccer, and a baby. Yeah, too much for me but I swear one day I'll do it. For now I'm just enjoying being a sahm...sometimes it really is all its cut out to be!

So.....

I need to update. I know this. I swear I will tomorrow. I swear...really. Right now I'm a little tipsy so not a good time lol. Who knows what I might end up saying. So.....check back tomorrow lol. Oops......I guess I mean today lol, I didn't realize it was sooo late!

8 wks Today

Wow...my "baby" is 8 wks old today. Seems like I just had him yesterday and at the same time it seems like he's always been here. It completes our family perfectly. Yesterday he rolled over! So big already. And he's already sleeping through the night. Couldn't ask for much more!

On-Call

My hubby that is. And wouldn't you know it 30 minutes after he got home from work he got called in for a freaking gun shot wound AND an appendectomy to follow that. So fuck you dude who pulled the trigger. Seriously not only are you just a stupid fuck for SHOOTING someone but also for ruining my uninterrupted night of sleep. And dude (or lady) w/ the appendicitis, you suck too. I mean I'm sorry you're sick and all but WHY tonight...why not after 6am when my hubby goes off call.

I love the paychecks when hubby gets called in but I hate the long lonely nights! :(

Back To School

I'm going. Well not real school lol but real estate courses. I'm so excited. I mean really really excited. I'm also going to try to find a part time job to offset any expenses that becoming an agent ends up costing me. But I am really really excited. I just might finally feel like I have a purpose other than just raising the kids.

Yes, I know thats a lot to live for but its just not enough for me. Every since I had my son I have suffered severe depression. We lived in a state where I knew no one and had no close friends plus I had a baby w/ one on the way. After Maddie arrived I sank even further into it and then I turned to drinking. Now anyone who knows me knows who much I love drinking but I turned into a bonafied (sp) alcoholic. It sucked. Some nights I would drink 12 or more beers, some nights 9-10 glasses of wine. It was bad. I wanted better for myself and my kids but didn't know how to get out and admitting it was embarrassing as hell.

So now that I've had Spence and am back in the same state as most of my friends and family I'm not going back to that dark dark place. Instead I'm filling my life w/ tons and tons of good things! Meds (gotta love em) a new job, my wonderful family and what ever else comes this way.

Medicated...WOOHOO

Went for my 6 wk post pardum check up today and I left w/ more medicines than a pharmacy lol. Seriously, I LOVE my doctor. She is an ask and you shall receive kinda gal lol. She put me on Lexapro, gave me Xanax, Seasonique, and Chantix! She promised none of these should make me gain weight..YAY since I just started weight watchers today to lose about 25 lbs! Next week Jerry and I are going to start going to the gym in the mornings to get us all ready to get up in the mornings for back to school. So hopefully very very soon I'll be a cute fit non smoking HAPPY mommy. I can't freakin wait!