Update...finally!!!

Whew.....I've been sooooo busy! My "babies" started preschool! I'm not going to pretend to be sad because I'm not. They needed it and so did I. They are having so much fun and learning so much. Both their teachers comment about how good they are every day. Hearing them talk about school and their friends and hearing the songs they learned seriously melts my heart. This is just so good for them/us! With DJ I never got to enjoy his baby stages because I was pregnant w/ Maddie 2 1/2 weeks after I had him and was miserable. With Maddie I was too busy taking care of 2 babies and suffering from PPD to enjoy her. Now w/ them in school I get some one on one time w/ Spence and I am enjoying the hell of of it. He is amazing. They all are. And even though sometimes I think they are going to drive me freaking crazy they always make me smile (even if its just on the inside lol)!

We've been running around like crazy people all week trying to get Jer enrolled in school. We were late for enrollement because Jer had to retake his GED test because we couldn't find his transcripts. Its funny because he basically has to have an associates degree to do the job he does but he still had to take the test. But we got him enrolled and he started classes today. Yay! It was hilarious when we were trying to pick out classes for him (VERY limited because of the late enrollment)...he tried to take anatomy/physiology and couldn't until he enrolled in a math class ( there were none open this semester) so he couldn't take it..I was crackin up because he CUTS PEOPLE OPEN EVERY DAY...lol, he damn well better know his anatomy LMAO! Another funny part is for one of his classes he's taking Sports Officiating..it was the only class open...but REALLY??? I can't believe that's a college course!

In other news, I am a soccer coach. Yep that's right. I don't know Jack Shit about soccer but I am a coach. Should be a fun season. Our first practice is tomorrow. Wish me luck.

I'm putting off real estate school...too much going on. The kids in school, Jer in school, Jer working so much, soccer, and a baby. Yeah, too much for me but I swear one day I'll do it. For now I'm just enjoying being a sahm...sometimes it really is all its cut out to be!

So.....

I need to update. I know this. I swear I will tomorrow. I swear...really. Right now I'm a little tipsy so not a good time lol. Who knows what I might end up saying. So.....check back tomorrow lol. Oops......I guess I mean today lol, I didn't realize it was sooo late!

8 wks Today

Wow...my "baby" is 8 wks old today. Seems like I just had him yesterday and at the same time it seems like he's always been here. It completes our family perfectly. Yesterday he rolled over! So big already. And he's already sleeping through the night. Couldn't ask for much more!

On-Call

My hubby that is. And wouldn't you know it 30 minutes after he got home from work he got called in for a freaking gun shot wound AND an appendectomy to follow that. So fuck you dude who pulled the trigger. Seriously not only are you just a stupid fuck for SHOOTING someone but also for ruining my uninterrupted night of sleep. And dude (or lady) w/ the appendicitis, you suck too. I mean I'm sorry you're sick and all but WHY tonight...why not after 6am when my hubby goes off call.

I love the paychecks when hubby gets called in but I hate the long lonely nights! :(

Back To School

I'm going. Well not real school lol but real estate courses. I'm so excited. I mean really really excited. I'm also going to try to find a part time job to offset any expenses that becoming an agent ends up costing me. But I am really really excited. I just might finally feel like I have a purpose other than just raising the kids.

Yes, I know thats a lot to live for but its just not enough for me. Every since I had my son I have suffered severe depression. We lived in a state where I knew no one and had no close friends plus I had a baby w/ one on the way. After Maddie arrived I sank even further into it and then I turned to drinking. Now anyone who knows me knows who much I love drinking but I turned into a bonafied (sp) alcoholic. It sucked. Some nights I would drink 12 or more beers, some nights 9-10 glasses of wine. It was bad. I wanted better for myself and my kids but didn't know how to get out and admitting it was embarrassing as hell.

So now that I've had Spence and am back in the same state as most of my friends and family I'm not going back to that dark dark place. Instead I'm filling my life w/ tons and tons of good things! Meds (gotta love em) a new job, my wonderful family and what ever else comes this way.

Medicated...WOOHOO

Went for my 6 wk post pardum check up today and I left w/ more medicines than a pharmacy lol. Seriously, I LOVE my doctor. She is an ask and you shall receive kinda gal lol. She put me on Lexapro, gave me Xanax, Seasonique, and Chantix! She promised none of these should make me gain weight..YAY since I just started weight watchers today to lose about 25 lbs! Next week Jerry and I are going to start going to the gym in the mornings to get us all ready to get up in the mornings for back to school. So hopefully very very soon I'll be a cute fit non smoking HAPPY mommy. I can't freakin wait!

Torture: Tomorrow 10:30 ACK

My damn tooth broke. I have to go to the dentist tomorrow morning at 10:30. I tried to go on Saturday morning but the dentist wasn't in. So tomorrow it is....that means I'm gettin really drunk tonight so I can actually sleep and taking two loracets in the morning so i can actually drive myself there. wish me luck.

Countdown

31 days til preschool people. This mama can't wait! I can't believe they're already old enough for school but I think we are all ready for it. I just don't have the time/energy right now to keep those creative little minds engaged. A teacher and a structured setting will just be wonderful for them.

Wow That's Bright

My hair that is. Oh lordy I screwed my hair up last night. Stupid home highlighting kits. Was trying to save some moolah but no now I have to go see my hair gal and shell out some big bucks for a cut and a color fix. My hair better look fanfuckintablulous after tomorrow!

Old Friends

Heard from an old friend today. Hope I get to see her really soon. She packed up and moved to New York and got married but shes back now. WooHoo...was one good part of the day!

Searching and Searching and Searching

Today is one of my husbands co-workers birthdays...her name is Rose. She's like 80 something and my big kids adore her. So they found out it was her birthday and wanted to make her a cake. That was last nights little project, today we decorated it. The kids had a blast and couldn't wait to take the cake up to Rose and surprise her. (So excited they even cleaned their room..I only had to ask once) Well when Jerry left earlier I asked him where our truck keys were...he says on the bed in his shorts or in the kitchen. Okay great, I can work with that, I'm sure I can find them. So I start searching, on the bed, in the kitchen, back to the bed, under the bed, under the dresser, back to the kitchen, around the kitchen baseboards (this is when I start to get really not happy)out to the truck, back to the kitchen, in the kids room, in the bathroom, back to the bed, in the dresser drawers, back to the kitchen, in the kitchen drawers, back to the truck, back to the kids bedroom, in the toy chest............NADA! This by the freakin way took me over an hour and 6 phones calls to Jerry. The last call saying I was done looking and we weren't coming up! Finally he calls me back and asks where I'm at. "uh....I'm at fucking home cause I can't find the fucking keys!" (see that's me really really mad) So I say are you sure you don't have them. He says "no sweetheart I don't have them." Me, "well could you just double check?" Him "sure I'll call you back" 2 minutes later RING RING..Me, "hello" Him "I love you" said w/ guilt dripping from his mouth. YEP you guess it....he had them the whole DAMN time. And the search was over. He came and got us, we went up to his work, delivered the cake, had a lil party and came home. Fun right? Good news, Rose loved her cake and the Spiderman and Princess cards from the big kids!

Slacker

Yep, that's me. I'm tired and being lazy lol. This weekend went by quick. Jerry got called in twice on Saturdays...I hate when he's on call on the weekend but it ends up paying off come payday.

The big kids..wheww...I don't even know where to start. They do NOT mind at all. Its gotten worse since baby boy was born..prob cause I don't get to spend as much time w/ them. But damn listen already. Needless to say I'm THRILLED that preschool starts in 37 days! WOOHOO!

Spencer is sleepin a lot lately (knock on wood lol). Maybe he's going through a growth spurt. Guess we'll see tomorrow at his checkup!

I have a toothache that comes and goes. I guess a visit to the dentist (GAG) is in order. I'll make an appt after I get my 6 wk post pardum checkup that way I can take a handful of xanax before I go. Last time I made a dentist appt. Jerry had to get on the phone to finish making the appt. cause I got sick to my stomach and started crying. Yeah I hate the dentist THAT much. Just typing about it is turning my stomach.

New subject. I need friends. Like friends I actually hang out w/. I love my two best friends but one lives far away and the other one just had a baby a few days after I had spencer so she's got her hands full. I used to have a 3rd one but I've bumped her down to a mere accquaintance. I talk to her fiance more than I talk to her..which is odd since I used to be engaged to the same guy lol. They're getting married in a week...that will be oodles of fun lol. I can't wait. So yeah I need some new friends w/ husbands that Jerry can be friends with. Then we can do the surburbanite thing and have backyard bbq's and playdates and cool shit like that. So, any takers.

Spence man is wakin up. Gotta go before he starts hollerin!

OUCH OUCH OUCH

I hurt ALL over. Did I do anything to warrant all of this pain such as tons of phyiscal activity yesterday or being run over by a steam roller...NOPE. I took a freaking Zomig for a migraine (well it wasn't even a migraine just a damn headache that advil wasn't touching and had lasted for days) and I woke up this morning feeling like I had been beaten. ...severely. So I basically traded my headache for a complete and total body ache...yeah I'll take a headache any day! Fuck Zomig!